Stranded and strangled

Plagued by feelings

Overwhelming emotions crash over me

Suffocated by questions that live inside of me

Tired of the flowing tears that just don’t stop

Standing alone

At a cross roads that I didn’t want to be at

Chilled to the soul

With no idea which way to take

I stand stranded

Waiting for somebody to lead me

Take me where I should be

Away from the questions

Away from the sound of chaos in my own head

Away to a place where I can just be numb

Running away from faces, sounds and my own shadow

I fail at it miserably

Capturing myself even more

Smiling for people

Speaking just to make my presence felt

I cage myself with each new person, each new voice...

Falling to pieces

I don a disguise with everyone I meet

I’m a different someone with a different somebody

Caught up in my different faces

I forgot which one is real

Looking into an ocean

For a drop of saltless water

I stand here with nothing

Apart from the remains of those times that went by unknown.

Drowned myself in parts

A disguise gone here

A whole piece there

 These lost and shattered pieces

Come back to haunt me

A part that I left behind with that friend

Another piece that withered with the loss of a loved one.